I know, strange title, but that pretty much sums up my current life. I have a business that is failing. I work a full time job at nights in housekeeping at a hospital and I’m watching my world crumble. Everything I’ve worked for and everything I hold dearly I’m on the verge of losing it all.
My supervisor went over a room inspection that was completed after I had cleaned it. There was only minor issues mostly about dust, but it was also mentioned that I missed a spot of feces under the rim of the toilet. It wasn’t the fact that these items were being brought to my attention, it was the fact this is what my life has come to.
Once I left his office, the thought hit me upside the head like a rock. My career had gone from managing multi million dollar budgets, managing multiple individuals to discussing my inability to properly remove feces from under a toilet rim. Pretty much sums up my life.
My life is in for some drastic changes over the next several months and as it stands now, not for the positive. I am trying to keep a positive attitude. I am trying to keep hope and faith, but it is hard. The hard part of it is that I brought this on myself. It was my actions or lack of them. It was my decisions and many of them bad that brought me to this point. Not blaming others, the blame is with me.
I hope to take my blog in a little different direction. I hope to use it to track my rise, my turning my life around. I want to show that it is possible to turn it all around. That no matter where you are in life, you have the ability to turn things around. I’m not shooting for bad to good or mediocre to ok, but bad to great, awful to awesome. I can’t mentally sustain this current path so change is necessary, change is demanded.
I don’t know how this will all end, but I will not go down without a fight. I have worked too hard. I have sacrificed so much, giving up is not an option. I pray for peace for my family. I pray for forgiveness from those I have hurt. I pray to my Holy Father to forgive me and grant me peace with my life.
Life is sometimes like the under part of a toilet rim, a little fences shows up and becomes an issue. We need to acknowledge it. Clean it. Flush it and move on with a clean toilet.